Did u ever felt useless?

do you know how it feels to be so guilty?? sometimes is just so difficult to fathom how on earth it happend anyways...think about the many peoples' heart you've broken,think about how much the world will not expect this from you...how can you live with guilt?how will you answer to God? what will be my answer... I cant comprehend... Daddy, your every fears came through...Will I have strength owing up to each deed that I commit!!! Each time I tired to lie!!! Oh god ill be so afraid to read on that day.....Ill be obliged to admit, Ill be obliged to submit, will I have stregth owing up to each deed I tried to hide??