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My interest and insights have changed over the years, things are not what they used to be, things are not what they really seem to be, life is much more than what we perceive it to be, my blog is my attempt to understand and share some of my thoughts that are expressible. Happily married, mother of two amazing little people...

Sunday, December 31, 2006

Welcome 2007

A s we welcome a bright new year, may we be touched with God's light, rekindled faith...
May the new year open up for us new horizions, and may our hearts be filled with new hopes and joys.... Heres wishing everyone happiness and prosperity in the new year....
Dont forget to say a prayer for the oppressed, say a prayer for the world...
Peace and Love

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Reflections and Resolutions

Once again we are at that time of the year, when we tend to reflect on the highs and the lows and make resolutions to abide by which will, ideally, improve our lives...Ive come far this year, in every ways... Ive grown internally, healed alot and learnt endlessly.I have regrets that cost alot.. The past 10 months had been like waves,one minute high up and the next your flat on your and downs.. like everyone else..Its what make us who we are, and what we are..This time of the year is always very sentimental to me,reflecting, reflecting...Its also the time when we traditionally make resolutions for the upcoming year which normally last as long as the New Year’s vacation and are soon quickly forgotten as we resume our usual busy schedules and daily lives..

"Making resolutions is a cleansing ritual of self-assessment and repentance that demands personal honesty and, ultimately, reinforces humility. Breaking them is part of the cycle."
Eric Zorn.

Well we are given the chance to get it right this time around again lol, put our willpower to test and absolutley ignore temptations(sigh) and stick to our resolutions for atleast a few months.Ive never been the one to take new years resolutions very seriously, a few months ill stick to it, and after that, its forgotten..I however tend to make changes as necessary on a day-day basis... to suit my own needs and wants lol..One thing ive learnt though, is to say exactly what I mean, and dont ever take anything or anyone for granted.. My greatest regrets is waiting too long to say the things I should have, there are so much pepole in my life - family, friends, and that special someone, whom iveall taken for granted that they will always be there, and that they know how important they are to me, but do they really know? When is the last time I told them?Have I ever told them?Sure I hug and kiss mom and dad each day, and tell them I love them, and everyone else, but did I ever told them exactly why I love them? Why they are so special to me?So this is my resolution for life, not just for New Years but each day, at least one heartfelt expression of friendship and love to someone near and dear to me..And yes, there are times when this expression of affection is embarrassing. I’m not a very demonstrative person, but I do want to rise above the fear of expression that I have, there are lots of worst things in the world than to be embarassed by your own emotions..

Resolutions and expectations...

1.Say what I mean, and mean what I say
2.Study and excell
3.Spend more time with my family, as a family
4.Make time for myself
5.Spend less time online daily ( YES I MEAN IT, sighh, wasted loads of time)
6.Stop worring about anything, and live one day at a time
7.Go to atleast one CWC matches in the Caribbean
8.Read alot more each day
9.Improve myself spiritually
10. Be married... ( wheww YES!! its about time I guess, or so im told LOL)

What are some of your resolutions??

This is officially my last blog for the year since im going to be seriously occupied..Heres wishing that everyone have a splendid time, and enjoy every minute of the season, May your new year be filled with blessings,joy,laughter and happiness, and may you be safe and strong...
Let us take time to be thankful for all that we have in our life and for all the people in our life, let us give to the less fortunate and bring cheer to everyone and let us learn to carry this spirit of the holidays every day of our lives , God Bless each and every one of you.
So Long....Unfurl your sails and ride the wind! !!!

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

You've spent your whole life creating your personality. Even now it is a work in progress, with every detail being fine tuned in response to your experience of life.
Imagine, though, how it would be if your personality were to simply vanish. What exactly would be left?
You would still be you, just as you were on the day you were born. In fact, without the personality you've spent so long developing, you would be purely you....
There would be no mask behind which to hide. The intact, unblemished essence of your being would be clear and unmistakably evident......
The vast majority of things that you spend so much time worrying and fretting about each day, matter only to your personality. They are of no real concern to the authentic person who lives inside....
Seek to stay in touch with the true person you are beyond the personality you have adopted. And you'll devote more energy to what really matters...

What you believe in is what really matters.... and it surely reflects who you are, and it depends on who you are...

Thursday, December 07, 2006


Truth is sometimes stranger than fiction, and how about 70 kilometers east the capital of the Czech Republic, Prague, lies a small town called Sedlec. It might have been an ordinary enough town, if not for its extraordinary church.The inside of this church is decorated with artworks made of real human bones. The story begins in 1218, when a certain Abbot Henry made a pilgrimage to the holy land and brought back a jar full of soil from cemetery, which he spread over the Church. As a result the church came to be regarded as more sacred and turned into a popular burial spot . By 1318, more than 30,000 bodies were buried there and by 1511, it had become necessary to remove the older bones to make place for the new ones. These later became the material for the macabre creations. In 1870 a local woodcarver was hired by the Duke of Shwartzenberg to decorate the inside of the church with the human remains (approximately 40,000 sets of human bones). Now it is one of the most extraordinary church in the whole world.... Boney Church - isn't it morbidly amazing???

Sunday, December 03, 2006

Laughter for a quiet Sunday...

Guyanese will enjoy this..

Learn Chinese in five (5) minutes!!

English:That's not right
Chinese: Sum Ting Wong

English:Are you harboring a fugitive?
Chinese: Hu Yu Hai Ding

English:See me ASAP
Chinese: Kum Hia Nao

English:Small Horse
Chinese: Tai Ni Po Ni

English:Did you go to the beach?
Chinese: Wai Yu So Tan

English:I bumped into a coffee table
Chinese: Ai Bang Mai Fu Kin Ni

English:I think you need a face lift
Chinese: Chin Tu Fat

English:It's very dark in here
Chinese: Wai So Dim

English:I thought you were on a diet
Chinese: Wai Yu Mun Ching

English:This is a tow away zone
Chinese: No Pah King

English:Our meeting is scheduled for next week
Chinese: Wai Yu Kum Nao

English:Staying out of sight
Chinese: Lei Ying Lo

English:He's cleaning his automobile
Chinese: Wa Shing Ka

English:Your body odor is offensive
Chinese: Yu Stin Ki Pu

Friday, December 01, 2006


Im in a mood for a long while, and I have no idea why...No im not approaching menopause and I doubt its PMS.. But jeeze everyone I talk to, we seems to end up arguing, or it just ends horrible...Am I hating the world, everything and everyone this badly?? I need help im sure, cause I sure did hurt alot of people, but believe me, I didnt meant a thing I said, nor was it intentional, it just happened!!! lots of times!! and I got no control over it... Nothing else I can say or do, but hope somehow, someday they will know exactly what Ive meant and how I felt...
The following is part of a conversation with a friend, just goes to show how messed up I really am...

My Friend: urgh
My Friend: ur impossible!
Me: thank you
My Friend: jesus
My Friend: what the hell is wrong with u
My Friend: for the past god knows how long
My Friend: uv ebeen given me non stop attitude
Me: hmm just wana drive u insane
My Friend: why
Me: cuz it makes me happy
My Friend: in that case ill talk to u whenever i feel im in the mood to take some shit from sum1 . ill see u later
My Friend: bye
Me: oh yea?
Me: fine, u can just delete and block me too
My Friend: so thats not an option for me
My Friend: but since ur in such a bitchy mood all the time
My Friend: u can do the honours
My Friend: good night.

Thursday, November 30, 2006

gosh, something really strange and weird is happening around me and I have no idea what it is...helppppppppp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

One Flaw In Women

Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart. Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors. They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning. They bring joy, hope and love. They have compassion and ideas. They give moral support to their family and friends. Women have vital things to say and everything to give. HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN, IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.......

Sunday, November 26, 2006

omg what a day Im having!! Ive never had such a day with so much mixed emotions, of course I knew im an emotion freak, once I start crying I so cant stop...
Right now im having a temperature, and my head and eyes are going...
Im hoping to feel better soon

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Funny thing...

Lol it was funny, Ive heard "someone" singing in the bath..."im all out of love, im so lost without you..." hahaha

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Well, nothing much, except...

Hmm well what can I say, im just recovering from a nagging toothache thats been bothering me all getting wiser, more of my wisdom teeth peeking out lol...
Well Im still waiting for someone to remember it was my birthday, if they do remember at all!!
Today, was totally weird , jeeze I still so cant believe it, strange things do happen, weird weird...
I promise ill share it as soon as I have some time...
Anyways I hope everyone had a happy thanksgiving, and remembered to be thankful for all that we have, but guys we should be thankful everyday, dont ever forget to be....

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Oh yes! Its my birthday again!!!! For a while, ive been seeing this day, and boy,last year just felt like yesterday....Growing old too fast indeed...
21 years! Time flies. Time moves on. Time is nothing, yet time is all. When I was fifteen, twenty one seemed a mile or more away...but here I am, speeding down the road of life, armed with experiences, lessons,maybe alot more that I can comprehend..How much my life have changed, how much my life is changing...Oh my Goshhh how did I ever reach here!!
Well lots did happened in my life from my last birthday to now, and yes ive grown
older, wiser, stronger,etc..Hmm and now I have an ultimatum to fulfill, dont I? (wink at IY,lol)Ive always depended on people to make my day, but you know, I wount anymore, because this time around, im so gona have a blast my not being selfish....
Anyways, on a serious note, I just cant forget to thank the Almighty for blessing me with health, strength, wisdom,for all the good and the bad, all the lessons ive learnt, all the experiences that thought me how to live, and to carry on etc, and Dear GOD I do hope you continue to bless me and keep me close to you, and forever make me happy, and yeah let me see alot more of these days..Thank you GOD,and thank you Mom and Dad... I love you both...

Monday, November 20, 2006

Here is what an astrologer said today......

How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others High-spirited, enthusiastic, and exuberant, you love adventure, change, exploring new territory, and are not happy confined to the same safe, familiar, secure little world all the time. You have a strong restlessness and yearning for something greater than anything you've yet experienced, and you often live in your dreams and visions for the future. You tend to believe that the grass is greener somewhere else and you like to keep moving, either literally or figuratively. Idealistic and optimistic, you always expect something better ahead. You love to have a goal, something to aim for, but once you achieve it you are on to something else. You are ever on the lookout for new opportunities and you are a gambler, willing to take risks and to break new ground. The possibility of discovering something new is what makes life interesting for you. You have great faith in life and bounce back quickly from disappointment and failure.

The Inner You

Your Real Motivation Quiet, deep, emotionally complex and intensely private, you are not a person who is easy to get to know and understand. You are extremely sensitive but disinclined to show it, and you allow only a special few into your inner world. Like a wary animal, you are cautious and mistrustful of those you do not know until you "sniff them out". You are very, very instinctive and intuitive. You usually have a strong, immediate gut reaction to people, even though you may be unable to clearly articulate why you feel as you do. Your feelings and perceptions go deeper than words.

wow! I never really knew that much of myself, maybe some of it..and geee I dont believe in those astrology stuff, but I just did it for fun after being bored lol, something I always wanted to do, but of course cant let my parents know I went to an astrologer, else they will freak out lol, hmm my idea of fun haha....

Sunday, November 19, 2006

This is hot!

Platinum Burnished Diamond Band (1/4 ct. tw.)Eight brilliant diamonds are set in brushed platinum. Polished edges add eye-catching shine. Inside edges are rounded for comfortable wear.
WOW! I absloutely love this ring... Dude, your gona have to wear it alright? LOL....
Do you guys think its cute??

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Its really true...

Life can give you a hundred reasons to cry, but you can give life a thousand reasons to smile As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back...

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Sometimes certain things happen in our lives that we least expected, and sometimes the special people in our lives, from whom we do not expect the unexpected, do stuff and change in such a way that it hurts a lot and we never forget those moments in our lives. When all this happen we are totally shocked as we never expected, sometimes we really feel sad!! , all thatmakes us us happy , do not excite us any more, in other words it appears like Life has come to a halt and it will never move ahead. But after some time when life gets on track again, we start moving on. But still those moments, those situations and those special people remain somewhere in our mind and heart, and when we recall them, we feel sad, and we again get upset and pray to GOD that these things never again happen in our life and we wish that those days and those friends and special people could come back again, or never to be seen again in our lives.
We always get to learn from these situations. We do not have anything in our hands ever , we can not change anything even if we want to, as some things are controlled by a Power , which we have never seen , but just felt......, and we are helpless in front of that Power called GOD. But it is said that what ever God does is for our benefit..., and keeping all this in mind we keep on moving.
But certain things are in our hands,sometimes we can stop those friends and special friends of ours and can make them realize about the changes and the situations. Never let any misunderstanding arise and be true to all relations from heart. So never let your special friends move out of your life, try everything to keep them with you, else if they are gone, we repent for whole life. Let the bad ones go.
And do not count what you have lost. Just see what you have now, because past never comes back but sometimes the Future can give us back our lost things.
I do not know what I have written, I had some thing in my mind which I have learned from this world and LIFE and I tried to convert that into words. But why does life keep teaching me lessons , I Have No Desire To Learn........

Wednesday, November 15, 2006


Im getting back on track with all thats happening in my life...
Feels good after a very corrupted week.
Hmm yes my blog looks different cuz ive been playin around with the settings, so now here ive got a brand new template... How does it look now??

Here are some thoughts for today...

Who you are Are you the baby who was born so many years ago? Are you the child who frolicked in the sunshine?
Are you the brash young person who dreams of changing the world? Are you the mature and gentle person who has learned the value of acceptance and forgiveness?
You are all of these and more. You are, in part, the substance of the moments you have experienced, and the hopeful anticipation of times to come.
Yet the person you are goes beyond mere experience and thought. For you are the very awareness that gives it all meaning.
No task is mundane and no day is ordinary when you fully grasp who you are. Nothing is impossible when compared to the marvel and wonder of your existence.
Whatever small or great challenge or event may come, be sure to remember who you are and how miraculous is the fact of being. And who you are, grows even more capable of giving meaning to it all.
-- Ralph Marston

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Oh well....

It never seems to be over, why why why.......
It feels horrible....Am i this terrible??
Even my blog settings got messed up!!

Saturday, November 11, 2006

The Amazing CN Tower....... Canada's Wonder of the world!

Creating a spectular skyline in downtown Toronto is Canada's most breath-taking, recognizable and celebrated icon. CN Tower stands at a height of 553.33m (1,815 ft., 5 inches), it is Canada’s National Tower, the World's Tallest Building, an important telecommunications hub, and the centre of tourism in Toronto.

In the tower is the amazing glass floor and the observation deck. Its a real test of courage to walk across the glass floor at 113 stories above the ground! That dare to walk on air experience, with only 2 1/2 inches of glass holding you 342m in the air lol. Amazingly the glass floor can withstand 4,100 kPa (600 lbs/sq in) or the equivalent to 14 adult hippos, so be brave next time lol...

The tower have a magnificent revolving 360 resturant, that offers a breathtaking spectular veiw, and a romantic evening.If the glass floor isn't enough excitement for you, hit the Arcade or LEGO Racers: The Ride motion simulator ride. The Maple Leaf Cinema also plays a 15 minute film on the construction of the tower 30 years ago.

Amazing isnt it??

Friday, November 10, 2006

When will it stop...

Having a terrible night, nothing is going right, and its freaking me out...
Why cant I ever say what I feel, what I meant, what im thinking??? I always expect people to see right though me and to know how im feeling, to know my thoughts, to say the words I want to hear... But I guess if I never say how I feel, im gona have alot more of these terrible nights. Maybe things like these happen to let us see how really bad it can get, how much things can change....Im sure gona have to change that bad habit of mines...

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Its strange, isnt it??

How things can really change you??
When you just cant keep up anymore with all thats happening around you,
with all thats expected of you...
I guess im realising how naive I am, I always give people the benefit of a doubt until they prove me wrong....alot of times.
I think i'd probably be alot more disappointed in life if I was more pessimistic, but I just don't think I can be. I don't want to let go of my assumption that everyone is a nice, good and kind, or that everyone is as positive about life as I am. Maybe it's about time, though, or maybe i've met a lot of negative people lately.
.... Maybe....Maybe....Maybe...

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Weird Fact of the Day:
The longest word in the English language, according to the Oxford English Dictionary, is pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis. The only other word with the same amount of letters is pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconioses, its plural.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

"its really actually true, what they would normally say"

"no man is an island"

Friday, October 13, 2006

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Whitsunday Island - Whitehaven Beach.... , Australia....ahhhh so dreamyyy.....

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Did u ever felt useless?

do you know how it feels to be so guilty?? sometimes is just so difficult to fathom how on earth it happend anyways...think about the many peoples' heart you've broken,think about how much the world will not expect this from can you live with guilt?how will you answer to God? what will be my answer... I cant comprehend... Daddy, your every fears came through...Will I have strength owing up to each deed that I commit!!! Each time I tired to lie!!! Oh god ill be so afraid to read on that day.....Ill be obliged to admit, Ill be obliged to submit, will I have stregth owing up to each deed I tried to hide??
Life what is it ?

Question wanting to be answered by those who need answer's seem that's everyone and anyone not knowing what the future may whole a crystal ball or features to behold slipping through my fingure's is wat I see an open arm with comforting alms but I like to believe it only a matter of wat we think .
Looking for answer as I sat in a room of closure an desire knowing it is just my opinion . A smile a upon my face I receive each day knowing it would be my last not knowing if i would see the light of such a beautiful day again ....

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Are you bothered like I am??

Sometimes, I just wonder who I am?? Can you tell my why I was created?? Whats the purpose of this life??
Where will I go after I die??
Are you bothered or worried? Do you have any answers??
Sometimes I wish I had a simple life just like a rock or a tree, serve a purpose and fades away, or a bird that flies so freely and happily without a sorrow!
But GOD thanks to you still, you know why you created me, and you did it for a reason, a purpose, the answer im still going to find as I go through life each day.....
Thank you indeed, im grateful....

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Oh Well.... Who really cares!!!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes, you just reach a point where it all seems difficult and somewhat impossible to climb, there is still hope, and yet lingering fears.....
Afraid to simply move another inch, uncertain of what lies ahead.....

Helplessness, no where to turn to, no one to talk to.......

This is the reality of life, many of us are forced to live each day...
Dont you just wish its all over soon??

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Follow Your Heart

Sometimes your heart thinks, whom do you really love?

You love someone, but you like someone else
Your minds speaks, but your heart denies...

Someone listens, but someone else comforts...
Someone prays, but someone else consoles...

Someone says, but someone else's actions speak...
Someone laughs, but someone else understands...

Someone just tells, but someone else makes you do...
Someone is there, but someone you want is not...

You search for someone in someone else...
Is this a beginning of Love, or is it the end?

A time comes in life when you think what love really is?
What you think is love, or is it something else?

Listen to your mind..., but follow your heart.

Friday, May 19, 2006

Secret Place!

There's a secret place in the center of my soul A place where every feeling is recorded A place where the emotions take control Here lies my attachment to the essence of you Knowing here in the depth of my soul That I could never survive without you.
There's a secret place in my heart A place where I love you so true A place where the attraction first started This is where it lives and blooms and grows Cherishing our every memory, every feeling I will love you forever, this I know.
But are these really secret places? Unknown corners of my very being Hidden without the slightest traces? To you they are open, you have the key These places are just as much yours as they are mine For without you these secret places would never be.
A Broken Heart....

I know how it feels to have a broken heart, Every day I feel that pain And I feel it will forever rain.Though my situation may be different, My Love is across the world from me, I know how it feels when your heart just isn't free. He used to call me,But then the phone calls quit, He tells me he loves me and wants me, Then ignores me the next minute, Every day my heart breaksBecause the way he treats me,But I feel so deeply that he is the 'one' And he tells me that he believes I am his soulmate. Why then does he treat me like this?Maybe its fear, But whatever it is, I just want him here...More every day, But things just aren't the same, Because I know tomorrow everything will change

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Another week.....

Oh well, its just another weekend.. with the same old crap again...
Life is just changing so rapidly and Im loosing control of it all....
End of semester almost here again...Boy what else is new???