Follow by Email

About Me

My photo
My interest and insights have changed over the years, things are not what they used to be, things are not what they really seem to be, life is much more than what we perceive it to be, my blog is my attempt to understand and share some of my thoughts that are expressible. Happily married, mother of two amazing little people...

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Someone please hit me so hard!!!!

Or slap me on the back of my head or punch me in the stomach or face. I bet you want to know why I am opening invitations to give me a good beating, and I am sure you probably don't care, because you just don't know how to get here fast enough to happily accept the invitation. Well, let me tell you, I was just not in the best of moods today, and took it out on someone that I really should've not. I was snappy and mean. I was slightly frustrated by my snappiness which made me more snappy and bitchy. Then I thought about it, and I know it's going to bother me until I see them again and make up for it if I can. But how? I have to dwell on these damn "emotions" and be bothered for a really long while.I was never an expert in realizing exactly when to push people away. Closeness freaks me out. I am very close to my friends,I dont have many, two really close and dear ones and would never ever push them away. In fact, if they try to go away( when we kinda fight), I try as hard as I can to keep them from doing just that. But there are some people that I just want to have so close, yet it seems the closer I want them,and the closer they tried to get, the harder I try to push them away. Seriously, someone, tell me, what's wrong with me?Pardon me while I go and scream into a pillow!

7 comments:

beenzzz said...

Sorry you're having such a bad day. I've been feeling pretty grouchy today too. I don't know what to tell you about pushing certain people away. Deep down, do they bring you comfort? If not, then there is a reason you are pushing them away.

Fatima Mohamed said...

beenzzz : Yeah, they do bring comfort, and I really dont want to be pushing them away, but I just cant seems to help it

info@depot said...

hello fatima...
i'd add u in my exchange link. sorry for delay time. hehhehe.. i have long holiday.. anyway, have a nice day!!!


menarique.blogspot.com
fun-o-fact.blogspot.com
videl-design.blogspot.com

anirudh said...

oh..i felt the same for a long long time..then just left it as it was...cudn help it at all

Princess Jibi said...

Shit happens, besides, by now everyone should be prepared for anyone to behave like this...
dont worry about it...

Fatima Mohamed said...

info@depot : hey no problem lol

anirudh : i guess its a phase huh

princess jibi : i guess its my turn now to face it lol

Haversian Canal said...

Ready to give punches !! :")

c'mon, take it easy!, life is much important than wasting it doing things we dont like. so do what yo like.

look, have cup coffe, cake and play ambient music..
relax to the maximum and when you feel you're cofortable, decide to do the right thing no matter what..

<< good for speachs huh? :")