When will it stop...

Having a terrible night, nothing is going right, and its freaking me out...
Why cant I ever say what I feel, what I meant, what im thinking??? I always expect people to see right though me and to know how im feeling, to know my thoughts, to say the words I want to hear... But I guess if I never say how I feel, im gona have alot more of these terrible nights. Maybe things like these happen to let us see how really bad it can get, how much things can change....Im sure gona have to change that bad habit of mines...